Note: (yes, I know, I should just put this over on the side) I am not a therapist, nor a health professional. I am a meditation teacher, Reiki master, and energy worker, and I focus on spiritual blocks. I do know that spiritual shifts/energy shifts can result in physical and emotional healing, but not in all cases (for a variety of reasons). Do not use any of the information I give you as a substitute for consulting with a health professional (physical or mental), social services professional, or law enforcement when appropriate. Re the present topic, it means that yes, if that cute guy you met at that party who offered you a ride home raped you, or the next door neighbor's teenaged daughter killed your dog, call the cops. Forgive, but prosecute.
Okay, where were we?
How do we forgive? And how do we know when we've forgiven? We recognize forgiveness when we realize there's no emotional attachment to the injury.
That is what forgiveness feels like: no emotional attachment. We simply aren't angry any more, or hurt, no matter how hard we try.
Let me just say this: if the wound is raw, you might need to do some other healing before you start on the path to forgiveness. In fact, it's likely that you'll experience the two on alternating days—a little healing leading to a little forgiveness, etc. Healing creates objectivity and the ability to be loving and compassionate (because you have the strength to be vulnerable all over again), and that gives you the strength to forgive, and forgiveness gives you space to breathe. I don't suggest trying to forgive no matter what—I think you have to do it when you're ready: when your brain says "I'm not a victim," and you're almost as mad at yourself for letting it still get to you.
I think there are about three steps to forgiveness—which isn't to say you can just check them off. Sometimes you'll find you need a lot of time (or maybe only a little) for each one, and you'll need meditation, contemplation, prayer, and imagination to do them. Forgiveness is frequently active (sometimes you'll find that you forgave something without even thinking about it, just through other things you're doing. Remember, you recognize it when you realize there is no emotional attachment to the injury. Can't even call your ex a sonofabitch and mean it.) There are other things that masquerade as forgiveness, of course, but it's up to you to decide: I trust you to be working on shifting out of old patterns and into new, or you wouldn't be here.
So here are the basic steps to active forgiveness:
• Realizing that forgiveness is not the same as agreement. Forgiveness stands on its own, and is not something you need to feel guilty about, no matter how heinous the offense or how unrepentant the perpetrator. Got nothing to do with either of them. This is about you healing.
• Realizing that everyone is doing the best they know how to do. Doesn't matter if you think they should have done it differently, should have been more enlightened, should have known you weren't the bad guy, shouldn't have taken out their pain on you. It's important to know that whatever they did wasn't about you—it was about them. Whatever the karma involved, whatever the complicating factors, if your husband beat you, it wasn't because you were a bad wife (even if you were). If your parents tied you to a radiator, it wasn't because you were a uncontrollable hooligan, even if you were (and that was the only way they knew to restrain you and keep you safe). If your mother's new boyfriend raped you when you were 13, it wasn't because you were a tramp. If your dad yelled at you for not cleaning your room, if the bullies at school beat you up for being different (however they defined it), it wasn't because of anything you did – it was because something (and not necessarily you) triggered a core of pain in them, and they were either striking out or walling up to protect themselves. By the way, it's also important to realize that you, too, were and are doing the best you knew how. The process works both ways.
• Letting go. Walk away from it. This is the part that probably takes the most meditation and prayer. Releasing your part (whatever you feel about having "caused" whatever happened) and releasing their part from you (it wasn't about you, it was about them). I admit, this is the part where I feel like the scientist in front of the blackboard where in the middle of the equation appear the words "here, a miracle happens." What I know is that when you practice letting go, eventually it happens.
Practicing letting go Our mind and body are marvelously entangled. We can imagine physical changes into being, and we can use physical sensation and action to create energetic and spiritual change. One of the best physical practices for letting go is this: get quiet. Put on some peaceful music if it helps, but it isn't necessary. Make yourself comfortable and if you want, close your eyes. Bring up a picture of the hurt you're trying to forgive. Don't dwell on it—that can just strengthen the tie, which is NOT the point. Simply hold the picture and allow yourself to feel whatever it is you feel: anger, hurt, fear, pain. Find the place in your body where that emotion is being held (frequently the chest, which is the seat of grief). You're likely to experience hot and tight as the primary physical sensations—like you're holding back tears, perhaps. Whatever the feeling is and wherever it is, the release is very simple: breathe into this spot. Imagine that the in breath goes directly to this place. On the out breath, relax. Imagine that with each breath out you have a little more room for the breathing. If you need to cry, do. If you're willing, dig a little—what are you feeling NOW? Perhaps over time anger has changed to grief, and you've spent years battling the wrong emotion. Perhaps you've already let go, and were just carrying around the memory. Do this as long as necessary. When you get up, wash your hands and drink some water to help seal off the breaking of those ties. In fact, if it helps, you can imagine ropes around whatever part of your body that hurts, and each breath in and out weakens (and finally breaks) those ties.
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