Opening

There are days when it is easy for us to shut down. Perhaps it's even justifiable. We're tired, we're busy...sometimes, it's all we can do just to take care of us, never mind everyone else.

But what happens if we push just a little bit to make room for something--anything--that isn't just "us." A smile for a stranger--or a friend. A thank you, or congratulations--with meaning!--when it's tempting to wait until tomorrow.

Or bigger--ten minutes (or thirty seconds, I'm not picky) of concentrated effort, visualizing all that is good in our lives, when all we really want to do is collapse into how much it sucks.

'Cause sometimes it sucks. Sometimes it's just easier to lie in bed and not bother. Or to open a bottle, or a box of chocolates. To shut down and numb whatever is going on in your feelings, because sometimes, you're just beat. Sometimes, you just need a break, and that's okay. But sometimes, the break you need is hidden in being willing to open up instead of shutting down.

A-ha moments and where to find them

Anybody who ever made a difference in this world went through a struggle to find their real purpose. Don't dump all over yourself if you are feeling lost and worthless. It's a sign you're looking for your path.


That's from today's Daily Kabbalah e-mail. Those daily "tune-ups" (their word) are nearly always a source of something to think on, and sometimes, like today, they provoke an "a-ha." This one did, coming hard on the heels of a couple of conversations (I hesitate to call them random, all things considered) in which the topic of finding one's purpose came up. Two conversations, yesterday evening, then this quote this morning.
 
Remember that synchronicity/awareness thing? Yeah.
 
But what does it mean? my logical mind interrupts. You aren't feeling lost and worthless.
 
No, I'm not. Both my logical mind and spiritual mind more or less agree. Or at least on the worthless part. I feel lost more often than I like--there's just so damn much to do and heal and complete. And then I realize how often the word "heal" comes up in my internal conversations. A-ha.
 
Or how I feel when having a conversation with someone (anyone) on particular subjects and they get it. A-ha.
 
Or when I wake up with a song in my head, and it's the first thing I hear on the radio. A-ha.
 
Or an experience--meditation last night, for example--that yanks me out of my expectations and drops me into something that is so perfect, it had to come from somewhere beyond me and my physical reality. A-ha.
 

To do today

Today's to-do list contains the usual mundane items: some things I need to do for work, cleaning, working out, steps to do on various writing projects and for a couple of professional associations I belong to.

I like to-do lists. I look at mine frequently, throughout the day. So I've started adding reminders to mine, more amorphous "to-do" items that aren't going to really get crossed off the list. Yesterday, I added "be aware of synchronicity" to mine. It's on there again today, so every time I look at that list, I'm reminded to bring synchronicity to the forefront of my attention. I've added "be aware of beauty," and one I snagged off Danielle LaPorte's blog several months ago--"French kiss life."

What's on your to-do list?

Be aware of synchronicity

I've set myself this task this week: watch for synchronicity. I'm feeling a strong pull toward something magickal, so I'm keeping my eyes open for the right things to happen at the right moments, for the right messages to strike with absolute clarity. For god to jump out from behind a tree with a pot of roses in her hand, telling me to scatter them on the ground as I walk to see where the path leads.

Inspiration

Living an inspired life means realizing someone (or something) bigger than you has a say in how things turn out.

Master plan

Digression: why is it always a 'master' plan, and never a 'mistress' plan?

This week's horoscope from Rob Brezsny tells me this is an excellent time--astrologically speaking--to initiate my "five year master plan." Which seems to be great advice, especially considering that I wrote in my journal (my sporadic journal) a couple of weeks ago a whole host of thoughts on that very topic.

Serendipitous.

I'm not only a fan of Rob Brezny's, I'm a big fan of synchronicity and serendipity.

This blog is part of that whole urge to create a new level of commitment and passion in my life. More synchronicity and serendipity.

I can sum up my 5-year plan in a few words: live better, love better, create better. Live more, love more, create more. Stop drifting. Commit to what feels good. Live consciously. Live sanely.

The beauty of that is, as long as I keep those in my sights, I can't help but meet the goals.

Action words

Love is a verb.